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NOTES FROM THE OUTERNET PHOTO: Hard Summer Moon

September 3rd, 2012 · 114 Comments · PHOTOS

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Off Air

HI Red
How are you?
- Red
  
  Hi Off Air
  
  Hope you had a great time and are feeling much better.
  
  I was waiting till you came back to tell you that I am leaving. As promised I said that I would tell you if I was going to go, but I don’t want to actually say goodbye, because I never say a final goodbye to anyone ( unless they have treated me badly )
  
  It seems that I have somehow lost my sense of humour, mind, heart and even my identity, throughout these pages for quite some time now. My heart is just not in it any more and to me when you have lost heart in something, there is no point in continuing. The only thing I have left are my memories, I want to leave while they remain special, before they become completely destroyed in the bitterness that this place has become.
  
  Who knows what the future holds and I may be back even if it’s just to say that I have finally seen The Intouchables
  
  Take care and I wish you the very best
  - Off Air
    
    :’(
    
    Hi Red
    
    I don’t have a lot of time to reply I have to go back to work
    I will reply this evening (my evening)
    
    Please keep in touch we will can speak a bit together
    
    I really feel the sadness trhough yours words… what can I do to make you feel better?
    - Red
      
      Thank you, but this one is not open for discussion. Believe me, I have thought long and hard about this and it is not a decision I take lightly.
      - Feelbetter
        
        what can I do to make you feel better?
        DIE BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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      - JustWondering
        
        You’re weird. Me likes you. And to ask from Off Air to marry you is a hard and heavy decision. Yes. Yes indeed. I’ve never been married before so I know. Be happy now you perfect carpet munchers!
      - Off Air
        
        I am thinking on a way to find another place to speak quieter
        And I think I found an idea ( but I need the help of someone
        
        Give me time
      - Red
        
        It’s ok, I don’t need a quiet place to talk or anything else, I don’t want you to talk me out of this, for the moment I just have to go. I’m sure you understand.
        
        Please just leave it at that.
      - Off Air
        
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        I let you leave.
    - FUCKBETTER
      
      DIE BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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    - Feelbetter
      
      what can I do to make you feel better?
      DIE BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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      !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  - JustWondering
    
    Yes Red Please! Please!!! STAY!!!
  - JustWondering
    
    How can anyone treat another badly over the net?
    
    You sound just exactly like some poor crazy girl that she thought the world of a man twice her age and half her heart’s power. Why do you women present men like they’re some special creatures when we all know and even them know that they’re just God’s experiment before creating the perfect sex.
    
    I thought you were a realist like your french friend…
    
    You’ve lost your identity over the net? Do you actually read or think before you type? How can you talk about yourself so negatively?
    
    How come you’ve stopped care for the sweet and beautiful french girl friend of yours all of a sudden? hhmm,,,
    
    Th e-net is not a place, woman. The net is what you dream of it to be… only the exact opposite!
    
    Ah yes, such fun and real movie!!
    
    Just ignore me. Again. No biggie. I only care not to ignore myself anyway.
    - Red
      
      I am not ignoring you, I just don’t know who you are
      - Off Air
        
        Red are you still around?
      - JustWondering
        
        Thanx. And you know who You are with all the things you say about yourself?
        I admit it. I don’t know who I am either and I hope to Wisdom that I’ll die still wondering about human nature otherwise it will bore me to live like I have nothing to be wondering about anymore.
        
        If you understood my words at all, you’re indeed wise and therefore boring.
      - Off Air
        
        Why are you picking on Red …?
        (hope that the gOOd expresion)
        
        :/
      - JustWondering
        
        Because I feel her
        her heart it sings
        I feel her
        The joy it brings
        
        Eh? I’m not mean. I’m just me.
        
        If only all of you kept your negative false thoughts of others to yourselves just because you think that way – oh, wait? Does it mean I’m a negative animal myself and there I thought that elephants bring good luck…
        
        Why do you love her anyway?
        
        But I admire your courage of always calling her out first. Bravo!
      - Off Air
        
        ‘Why do you love her anyway?’
        
        Because she is Red.
        
        And now just leave me alone.
    - Off Air
      
      Are you ‘elephant’ ?
      (just wondering)
      - JustWondering
        
        Yes.
      - Red
        
        well then, I’m sure you will understand too.
      - JustWondering
        
        Yes.
      - True
        
        Go to hell
      - True
        
        how does that make you feel ??
        
        now multiply that with every lie, false accusation and insult you gave me and you still won’t be remotely close to how I FEEL
      - JustWondering
        
        You’re asking True, right?
      - JustWondering
        
        Been there done that. I hate to visit a place twice. Ok, apart from France.
  - Off Air
    
    One day you asked me what had your words? I believe that when we really listen to the other, through the words, we can see the mind, the heart, the identity of this person.
    
    But regarding your sense of humor I’ve never understood. Hey! I am French and I do not understand English as much as I would like.
    
    Sorry if I hurt you, it was not intentional
- JustWondering
  
  Are You .X. ????????
  - True
    
    I am .X.
    - LMNOP
      
      I stand by my previous statement..
    - JustWondering
      
      Nice to meet you. I’m A.
  - LMNOP
    
    Why are you looking for X huh?… Y and Z are much more fun!!
    - JustWondering
      
      I don’t think so. Altho I hate to be kissed and an X means just that, it’s better than the whining Y and the Z, well, I dislike endings as well.
      
      I do love your L tho stranger.
      - LMNOP
        
        Ok are you a vowel or consonant kinda guy?
      - JustWondering
        
        I’m Bowelman. I just love to digest. It keeps my heart moving and my mind more open – if that’s possible.
        
        No, I’m not full of shit. My shit evaporate but my heart stays solid.
        
        In reality I’m all letters. I wish I were a book. A written one just never read – ever.
      - LMNOP
        
        You must have the most amazing shit on the planet for it to evaporate. Does your personality do the same when your not online.
      - JustWondering
        
        Hard to tell. Just like my shit.
        
        I got to work for a living (not really) but I’m off now L.
melanigothic

uyyy that moon looks like a big lamp lit. amazing xoxp
http://www.tumblr.com/blog/betweenchaosandorder Johana Nevado

Perfect!
JustWondering

Wow! What a lovely black shy!! errr..sKY!!

Stupid people are looking at each others while a smart one knows where to look = up above!
http://twitter.com/MidnightBlues4 Midnight Blues

There’s nothing like listening to great music, beneath the beautiful moon.
Off Air

Cherrylee, Mo, iSigh (no, you never ever bored me)

I don’t ignore you but I can speak anymore…
- cherrylee1
  
  Good morning Off Air, I am soooooo tired! I am waiting patiently for your comment. Wish you a nice day! It was pretty late yesterday. I saw your posting time…..
- Red
  
  I’m sorry if I have upset you, I feel like crap as it is and I don’t want to feel like I have hurt somebody else, please don’t let this effect the relationships that you have built up with others.
  
  I appreciate everything you have said and will always regard you as one of the most genuine people here,
  
  Take care and kick ass as always
  - Off Air
    
    ‘I don’t want to feel like I have hurt somebody else’
    But you do !!
    You hurt me deeper as I never been.
    Yes you are a ‘crap’
    
    You asked me to let you leave and I do. Because it is the only thing I can do for you (even if it hurts me) .But you want me to stay, to continue watching me from afar. But leaving me alone.
    
    I do not need the web Red. If I close everything. If I give all my accounts private …. What will you do?
    
    Elephant admire my courage always call you first. But what she does not know is that You told me about the first. And even if you took the distance, somehow you always kept in touch with me. And most importantly you have always responded whenever I called. Always.
    
    Now poses the question yourself: what did you wanted to talk to me? And that you still did even if you found me harsh at first contact?
    
    Why you can not stand the idea that I too can leave?
    
    What are you afraid of?
    - Red
      
      when I said kick ass, I didn’t mean mine
      
      I don’t understand why you are getting so upset by my leaving. I am obviously missing something, and I don’t quite know what it is. There is so much confusion and misunderstanding here and far too many people are being hurt in the process.
      
      ”Elephant admire my courage always call you first. But what she does not know is that You told me about the first”
      
      what you mean by this ?
      
      I saw that you were upset and I didn’t/don’t want you to be affected by my decision, that’s all. My decision to leave has nothing to do with you, it is a completely separate matter, even though somehow it all seems to be entwined. The only reason I have replied to you over the last few months, is because you have ‘ called ‘ my name. I didn’t want to be rude and ignore you, as I have enjoyed our conversations, but things are getting too complicated now.
      
      how did I find you harsh at first contact ? I never said that.
      - Off Air
        
        I mean that You spoke to me first. You replied to me first
        Maybe I wrote wrong. The plurality of languages is
        wealth and weakness at the same time
        
        “things are getting too complicated now.”
        
        what does that means? What is complicated? Why now?
        
        And why not to kick your ass !! that makes you react
        
        Anyway you don’t sleep a lot
        and I’m hungry, I still don’t lunch
        
        ps: you are wrong. I am not upset. It’s not the good word.
        
        And more, I am so worried: one of my colleague of work has disappear. She don’t answer nor call nor message. Nobody knows where she is. That’s crazy !! I think I will become insane
      - Free
        
        uraaaaaaaa bastard!
      - Red
        
        ”what does that means? What is complicated? Why now”
        
        My situation, again not anything to do with you, but it really doesn’t matter anymore.
        
        I’m glad you are not upset,
        
        bye
      - Off Air
        
        Don’t say ‘bye’ to me I don’t like that
        
        Leave this place if you want but don’t leave me
        
        Your situation is complicated ! Managed to find a easy way.
        
        What do you mean by ‘it really doesn’t matter anymore’?
        
        ps: What is the difference between upset and angry? That gives me the same word in french. Teach me
      - Off Air
        
        And you don’t answer me only out of politeness, because if it bothers you that I call you, I know you will have the courtesy to tell me to stop
  - Off Air
    
    Do not worry for the relationships that I have built .
    Mo knows where to find me. And Cherrylee is waiting patiently. I do not think I am mistaken in writing that she understands that I need to take some distance with this place for a while.
    
    Maybe I should leave this place. But I do not leave them.
    - cherrylee1
      
      Woe betide you if you leave me!
      - Off Air
        
        Aww message received!! : D
        Xo
      - Evil
        
        Woe betide you if you love me!
  - Off Air
    
    I was rereading our last conversation…
    What do you mean by ‘somebody else’…?
NikkiNakkiNoo

Was this a blue moon? I know we just had one. Ours was all luminous and soft yellow, close to the horizon. Was a beautiful setting for what turned into a crazy night
Off Air

” I close the door and then I walk away
I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna stay
I don’t really know what I want anyway
What the hell do you want me to say” – Anna Chalon ‘Run and Hide’
Off Air

I do not have the right to talk to peace, I have to go to war…? :p
Off Air

I have the impression that disqus ‘loves’ my new avatar. It often appears in big… well in my dashboard. That’s weird.

Anyone else…?

NOTES FROM THE OUTERNET PHOTO: Hard Summer Moon

September 3rd, 2012 · 114 Comments · PHOTOS

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